the latter i would choose. i would rather see others being happy than myself. that's why i usually meet people with a smiling face.. so that they would cheer up and not feel so down. when i see that my friends are happy, i will be happy too. but of coz, it's not easy to please everyone.. in fact, there are times where we cant please everyone. we'll probably end up in a dilemma, a headache or getting hurt ourselves. much as i want everyone to be happy, it's never easy to satisfy all of them.

many a times, i feel so helpless, so hurt deep inside when i cant please my friends..and i end up getting hurt coz they dont understand my situation..wanna talk it out sometimes.. but it will make matters worse in some cases..sometimes people are juz insensitive and say things to make me feel bad..or say things that i will never have expected them to say.. i feel so tired of crying n hurting myself mann.. my friend once said to me, "stop thinking so much for other people, think for urself too!" yea.. i know and i understand.. but it's juz so hard..i will still place others' interests above myself.

one thing i've learnt is that sometimes too obliging to others may end up getting taken for granted..of coz there are still people whom we can be obliging to..those are really true friends who stand by u and help u out when ure down..but others..juz take you for granted n make use of u.. one silly person is myself. there was this once, where i was sincere in befriending this guy in my tute..and when he needed help in some assignmts, i helped..and even send him my reports for his "reference"..yea.. so-called reference.. when he actually incorporated part of my work into his w/o changing it..how great was that..n i told him that he better change it lest the lecturer may find some probs in it..he said he will.. but God noes if he did..hah. well, after finishing the assignmts, he did thank me n said that he will treat me to a meal next time.. blah blah.. drive me out in his car.. blah blah.. and guess wad? i didnt hear from him at all until recently when he needed my help again in his assigmts..this time i chose not to help him anymore.. why should i.. when he himself doesnt bother much and always leaving his work till the last min n ends up rushing to complete it.. sheesh mann..i dont wanna be so stupid n be made used of again.. people should help others who help themselves..

but im glad to have so many wonderful friends around me who still care and stand by me..i love ya all!!!

oh wells.. so much for this entry.. juz wanted to share some of my thoughts with u guys..

Chia Pei Jun born on 3rd July 1984 ~ Year of the Rat! Studied in CHIJ Toa Payoh ~ Ngee Ann Poly ~ University of Queensland. Currently working in Asia Business Forum.

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